you were wrong....

how many times have i told myself that i'm over it? i am...i am really over it...i walk through my life now with a lot of happiness...with a lot of strength....with a lot of support and guidance...and i don't think or depend my emotions to YOU anymore...we went through our own path of life and we are pretty much happy with our choice...

then why all of the sudden the heart beats your name again? all this while i never thought of not having you near..though actually we have never met each other for such a long time...and i'm really comfortable with not seeing you....i know...i'm actually trying to avoid...trying to walk away...trying to throw everything in flames...but you keep coming back....

i hate it when you thanked me for everything...telling me how i have sacrificed for you...risking my life for you...being there for you...patiently supporting you...i hate it...but i'm touched by the words at the same time...it's like your most honest confession...and again...i would just be whom i always been with you...encouraging and supporting you as your most best friend....

i have known that this day would finally come one day...you would finally be leaving Kuala Lumpur...and continue your dream to be with your family...when i got that call..i was so happy for you...but then i realized i would never have the chance to see you again...you said the same thing too... :) i got my ego...and you know how hard my heart is...you once said that i have a very cold heart..kejam...haha! i do...but that heart is what has kept me alive until now...making me able to walk the world without having to cry and that heart has been keeping me strong...

i guess my dear friend..this is what we call life...having a part of my journey with you has been the most remembered memory....we both will always be the most odd couple...the irreplaceable couple...the most controversy...haha! :D it has been painful and fun at the same time...

and if you think at this moment that i can't live without you near...YOU WERE WRONG... :) have a great life...

you will never be....

How did we ever come to this
I never thought you'd be
someone I'd have to miss
and there I was caught in your game
needing answers that never came
and we took a chance,
you said you were strong
strong enough
but you were wrong...

and now I'm...

Deafened by your silence
blinded by the tears
if you're looking for forgiveness
you won't find that here
cause you lied your way to heartbreak
and now its all too clear
that you will never be....

Look at her
she won't ever compare
you can say you're sorry
but I still don't care
was she worth this mess
was she worth this pain
you can say it's her fault
but you're both to blame

...Now I'm ....

Looking back it was all so easy
I hope you know you're my last mistake
Don't come around and say you need me
I won't stay

Now I know that you were so deceiving
was it fun for you to walk away
I hope you liked it
cause she's so damn easy
you won't change

That you will never be......

 

"the love with you was the scariest one of all..."

- black parade queen -

Iron lady in da house again!

Assalamualaikum...what a long raya holiday...2 weeks of family bonding time and leisure and waking up late in the morning...(well not that late...8.30 in the morning and then umi dh call hp suroh turon...kikiki..)whatever it is...my raya holiday was fabulous... ^_^ and the raya has been tremendously wonderful... ^_^

Now...here comes Monday blues...hihihi...blk ler ke dunia keja blk... :D awal2 pagi pelangi dh berlari2 ke sana sini dgn kelas...dgn meeting...dgn program...dgn persediaan utk students exam..wahahaha...iron lady is back! Huii...i really miss the havoc moments of my life..kikiki...seronok sibuk ni tp pelangi kena ingat janji pada aboh...'Jgn lupa mkn...jaga kesihatan...jgn asyik nk keja smpai lupa nk jaga diri..! Hihi...comel jer cinta hati mama ni klu m'bebel...kikiki...yea...mama ingat pesan aboh...hihi... ^_^

Oh well...got to get back to work now...there are tons of essays to mark...consultations dates to meet up...in other words...busy till I'm drown..ekekeke... ^_^