then why all of the sudden the heart beats your name again? all this while i never thought of not having you near..though actually we have never met each other for such a long time...and i'm really comfortable with not seeing you....i know...i'm actually trying to avoid...trying to walk away...trying to throw everything in flames...but you keep coming back....
i hate it when you thanked me for everything...telling me how i have sacrificed for you...risking my life for you...being there for you...patiently supporting you...i hate it...but i'm touched by the words at the same time...it's like your most honest confession...and again...i would just be whom i always been with you...encouraging and supporting you as your most best friend....
i have known that this day would finally come one day...you would finally be leaving Kuala Lumpur...and continue your dream to be with your family...when i got that call..i was so happy for you...but then i realized i would never have the chance to see you again...you said the same thing too... :) i got my ego...and you know how hard my heart is...you once said that i have a very cold heart..kejam...haha! i do...but that heart is what has kept me alive until now...making me able to walk the world without having to cry and that heart has been keeping me strong...
i guess my dear friend..this is what we call life...having a part of my journey with you has been the most remembered memory....we both will always be the most odd couple...the irreplaceable couple...the most controversy...haha! :D it has been painful and fun at the same time...
and if you think at this moment that i can't live without you near...YOU WERE WRONG... :) have a great life...
